Whitelight Experience

Pleasant lazy mornin..:)

2010-08-04T17:19:00.000-07:00

hai...fiuh.. what a hiatus...so long a period between posts..now, where am i? at this very moment im living at a plantation estate where my cousin's working. Really peaceful, really quiet..theres nothing much to do really other than blistering my thumb playing fight night3 on ps2, surfing the net and eating..its a good thing theres internet access here. otherwise i wouldn't have a clue what else to do.That would have been boring. Lately i noticed that my memory power has been fading..its obviously not as strong as it once was..especially the short term memories..i have now been very forgetful of even things that happened minutes ago..im really worried about this and really scared..please God restore my memory power. Im really worried about this.What made me be this terrible...my brain power is at its alltime low perhaps..im gonna work hard to restore it..do whatever i can to get it back...But the good(the best actually) thing that has happen to me is that i have fallen in love again..allright althought its not really that great because im the only one feeling it(angau)......might as well feel like this for quite some time...i dont wanna feel the type of pain i felt before...but at least it felt good(being in love) so maybe,just maybe things might progress from being in love to being in a relationship. I never had a girlfriend in my life...i wanna know how it feels..i wanna know how it gives you that dreamy kick that most in love couples feel. Its time to feel that true love that each and every one of us deserves..the famous saying " there's always someone out there for you" i hope that will come true in my case.. if that happens which i hope is not far off, Thank God...hehe... I wanna move forward from now on..its no use to reminisce on things that has passed(but there will of course be moments of yesteryears and yesterdays that i hold very dear to my heart) but some of the things that happened in the past has been very unpleasant..when you've been hurt you try to find things to do that will keep your mind off from the pain..but it doesn't kill it, it sure as death doesn't make it go away...but time heals(not always though) and the longer it has been, the more you can move on..(i keep using the word you..actually i meant me) i desperately need and want it...i can only plan..in the end, it is God who decides what will happen..So i better be good to speed it up...heheh just kidding...all i want is peace of mind, all i want is joy and happiness, all i want is great moments with my family friends and a special one(hehe) dont you guys want that? if you say that you don't, there must be something wrong with you..no one wants pain and tragedy..if theres is, please show me that person...he/she would be interesting to know..........

Hai

2010-04-21T06:51:00.001-07:00

I dont know what to write at all...so these 16 words is all for now.

Help...

2010-02-22T01:47:00.000-08:00

I need help...i dnt feel happy about anything thats happenin to me...I'm crushed, my spirit is chrushed...i still haven't recovered from what happened 3 months ago...my inside was partly killed...it's gonna keep haunting me...i feel down..even lower than i've ever been...why did it happened to me? it's just to painfull....why??? im so hurt....

Back to Blogging..

2010-02-11T01:42:00.000-08:00

I am back to blogging again. After deciding earlier to stop blogging for some reasons. Now suddenly those reasons aren't relevant to me anymore. I find this thing quite exciting. I mean blogging. At least it's a whole lot better than twitter. I use to ask myself, Which is better? keeping a journal/diary or having a blogsite? hmm...maybe both...to me the obvious difference between these two are you have to write with ur hand when it comes to the journal and it's typing with the blogging. Huhuh..so basicly keeping a diary is much more effort related. Hahaha..Is my language usage right??...probably not. Hmm...so 2009, What happened in that year in my life??... Well, every year it's always the same..IN COMES THE GOOD, IN COMES THE BAD.. and what came out?? KNOWLEDGE AND EXPERIENCE. I hate sayin it because its overused, and super cliche it makes me sick. In life, poop happens and we know it. But somethings needs no explanation sometimes. And theres always people disagreeing with you. Things need changing and only by that we could make the right kind of adjustments needed in order to do whatever.